12-17-17

The amount of happiness I feel is overwhelming. I have literally been smiling since 4:30pm today. Nate proposed to me! I will get down the little details tomorrow but I am almost brought to tears when I think about how God has prepared us. It seems like all of the things that we have gone through are worth it. Nate has told me the things he struggles with and same goes for me. I became incredibly grateful for those hard things. Grateful for missions and the things we've been able to do. Grateful that almost 2 years ago I was having my exit interview with my Mission President and him telling me not to blow off meeting the right guy based off how I met him (efy co counselors come on). I love Nathan Patrick Steed so much. You grow up your whole life wondering what it would be like. How will you feel, what you'll be wearing....etc. But it like literally did not mater as long as Nate was going to be with me. He put so much effort into that I never even knew. The love he has for me makes me feel secure. It is always there. Unaltering. He is my equal opposite. He makes me feel like the future is going to be amazing and that there are so many things in store. I literally can't wait to spend my entire life with him. We both had doubts which I think is good to acknowledge. I had a mental breakdown last week and I guess he did this week. It happens but that's okay. When something is good Satan will try to tear it down. But when something is right you get this peace and feeling that you can not any where else.

"Now when guys think you're hot, they'll see that" I also think one of the cutest parts was how muchNate cared about the ring. He just kept looking at it over and over again. And he was so happy that I finally had it on. IT IS BEAUTIFUL I LOVE IT SO MUCH. He did such a good job.